The beginning of an ending
Not to be dramatic with the title, it is just me, really bad in creating titles. Anyway, the title does contain some truth. I’m going to start anew in blogging, and that means my poor blogspot one will have to be abandoned. It is still there (in fact I just updated it this morning, but suddenly I felt fed up, a feeling that has long been lingering in my heart, but obscured by the shortage of time, no time to think of it!) and will always be there. I will always check it, and still love it. I’ve lived with it for about 3 years. I cannot just delete it, can I?
I really hope with this new ‘wasilah’ of expressing my feeling and pondering, I will feel satisfy and become more mature. I’ve always loathed myself when I blogged because I sounded so childish. Always whining and being ambigous about certain issues. I really want to become an unequivocal person, who totally believes in herself and her faith, who is strong and courageous enough to stand up to her opinions.
Much of the things I wrote in my previous blog are completely rubbish and childish. I’m looking forward to write here, to prove that I have changed and improved. I will try not to mind people who criticized me because I realize they make me notice of my own mistakes. I will not persuade people to come here, because my major objective is not to attract people. I just want a channel for my feeling and thinking to flow. Perhaps if I don’t have this opportunity, I would have exploded.
My language and writing skill are not good. I’m a novice in this area, though I’ve practiced writing for more than 3 years now. It is due to lack of formal education on this skill. It is hard to teach yourself all these and even if I taught myself to it, the possibility for me to be an adroit writer is so small. For the time being, I will learn slowly, read more and practise more!
It’s 5.25 pm here in Malaysia. I have to go and perform my asar prayer, and then I’m off to dinner!
