I’m feeling good, I’m home!
But.. it’s already Friday! means there’re only 2 days left before I have to depart (eheh) again… Well, as always, I feel kinda useless during the holiday.. doing nothing. Got lots of works/assignments though. I managed to do a bit yesterday.. (yup! I started yesterday.. what a procrastinator).
The house is currently under a minor renovation. So I have to put on my tudung everytime I want to go downstairs.. Hmm.. my father wants to ‘enlarged’ the room downstairs so that it’ll be more comfortable to be my mum’s post-labour room… haha.. oh yea.. 2 more weeks before the baby is due!! waa.. I cannot wait. But unfortunately I won’t be here… huhu.. just hope I can go back as soon as possible after the baby is delivered.
This evening I have to interview my mum’s friend for my research paper on animal testing. I’ve never done interviewing! hentam sajala.. my mum said. Besides, the interviewee is my mum’s best friend.. so I won’t feel really akward. Um, she works in Jabatan Haiwan…
Anyway, I’ve bought a new phone. It is Motorola L6.
My mum said I got rheumatism… so she bought me 2 big bottles of calcium tablets. Because I always complain about my hands and feet.. painful…
Yesterday, a letter from Uniten arrived. Turned out to be my GPA trnascript. Haha. Well, I’ve already told about my GPA.. but did I tell what made my GPA down? I got A for all my subjects… (that is 4.00).. except for Physics! I got B+ (3.30). Haha.. can you believe it? of all the subjects, I got Physics B+. A little bit dissapointing but I’m satisfied with the overall grade. Couldn’t ask for more…
unrelated subject..
Hmm… actually.. I want to say that.. I don’t want to care anymore. Although I think I won’t be able to do that, I just don’t want to care anymore. I guess I’ve wasted so much time and energy thinking about this. And I’m so tired already. And I just don’t want to care. I’m very tired. Thinking and worrying over this uncertainty. Hoping for an answer, that I’m sure I won’t get in the near future. So…. I think I made the right move… not to care anymore… because ,… just no use! I don’t want to wait either…. I’ll just let anything happen…. and let me drift with the flow…..and when the time comes, I’ll know the truth.
oh.. and I’m sooooo tired of all these group project issues… I want this over! penat!! I’m tired of being played .. being ignored, being doubted, being judged! huhu,… 2 more weeks.. Hang on!
A week to go before mid-sem break. The holiday is only for a week though. But anyway, I don’t mind. I just need to go back, for awhile. Cannot for long because I seriously need to be more serious in everything I’m doing.
My handphone was stolen last Thursday. When I was in the library’s restroom. After Zuhr prayer. Hmm… life isn’t so bad without it. But certainly it is an inconvenience.
People will laugh when I say this… but I want to go on diet. Hahaha. This thing never been an issue for me although I realized that I need to be on diet… but don’t know why, now I think I should do it. I’m sick listening to people saying that I’m slim enough… I know they just want to pacify my feeling. Haha. Seriously people!, I know myself… and my BMI. And my tummy need to be flatten. Hahaha. And, I need to be healthy.. I need to be lighter.. I always think, I need to be lighter, so that it would be easy for people to carry my body when I die.
For some reason, I feel like I’m going to die young. Whatever will be, I’ll always redha.. InsyaAllah.
I think I’m overly paranoid. 
I need to study hard… excel in Advanced Placement, n get a place in Uni of Melbourne. It doesn’t matter whether I can really go or not. I just want a place there. To prove that I really can…
One of my seniors here almost failed the medical check-up or test or something… because she has a hearing problem. She didn’t know about it until the hearing test. Just found out that she couldn’t hear a certain sounds. Scary…
Anyway, everything is fine now, regarding the group project. He (my assistant) isn’t so bad afterall… He apologized, right after I posted the entry below. Scary! Did he read this??? Haha.. hopefully not!!!
My mind right now, as always, is in a mess. I need to organize it.. haha… Serabut tuh tak best .