mkderwish…

My aunt will be staying here for a while, until she gets well. My parents have to watch over her, making sure she takes her medicine…

Sigh, just when I got this a month holiday. I guess, I have to be strong and try my best to help. It’s quite cruel of me if I got mad because she’s here. I have to help. I cannot be selfish. It’s an inconvenience but I trust this is one of Allah’s trial for me. Be patient and caring …

She has schizophrenia. It’s scary. Everything concerning her is unpredictable. She always laughs by herself. She laughs only when she’s alone. She got mad at everything. If anything is messy, she will nag and scold everyone she sees. Her face looks scary. All glum and red… her eyes are red…  Her cooking, you don’t want to know. She just mixes everything…

I pray to Allah, hope that she’ll recover. She has this sickness since forever. And it comes and goes. Especially when she’s under a lot of stress.

But people, please… she’s not crazy. This is not a type of madness. She’s sick and that’s that. She has a psychological disorder and that’s that. All of us, normal people have to help her. All the stigmatism will only worsen the condition. When she’s okay, she’s very okay! actually, my aunt is a very caring and loving person. Only when the sickness comes, she becomes a bit different.

Her sickness really made me interested in learning psychology and human mind… I like to know various kind of psychological disorders. I read books like ‘I know this much is true’ and ‘Or give me death…’ and watch movies like ‘Girl, Interrupted’ and ‘A beautiful mind’ repeatedly. Human mind is so fascinating….. don’t u think??

Anyway… today I accompanied my mum to the hospital. I watched over Hanaa’ while my mum was having her medical check-up.

And, I just got back from my friend’s (Nonie) house. Just talking and doing nothing else. I’m bored at home and I am missing everyone… but many of my friends are not at their home.. I’m looking forward to meet everyone!!

Hanaa’ is super cute!! she looks a lot like a chinese just that her skin is a bit tanner (huh? hehe). Oh, her cheeks are getting chubbier.. and her voice is soooo sweet. I love her small eyes! I will post her latest pic.. later.

What shall I do tomorrow?….