Yesterday we received all the application forms for Australian universities that we intend to go to.
I took 5 forms; from 5 universities.. there are University of Melbourne, University of Western Australia, Monash University, University of Sydney and University of Adelaide. My first choice is Uni of Melbourne. My last choice is Uni of Adelaide… but I havent make up my mind which uni for the second, third or fourth choice among those 3.
The plan to send us to the US is cancelled, according to the ministry of education representative. But some of my friends want to appeal or something, because they are really interested to go to the US. As for me, I just want to focus. As I have said before, I do want to go to the US, if they tell us earlier. But the situation now is different. Anyway, the uni in Australia (the big 8 particularly) are just as good (if not better) as the US uni…
Actually I just got back from Hi Tea Palestine which was held in Putrajaya. Talks were delivered by none other than Ust Mazslee and Dr Hafidzi. It was interesting. Membakar semangat.. geram sangat kat puak2 zionis… and at the same time feel guilty because here in Malaysia, hidup bersenang lenang.. bergelak ketawe.. senang je lupa ttg isu ni… so, berazamlah diri ini, supaya membantu setakat termampu.. menyebarkan kepada sahabat2 terdekat n family.. n also, berterusan membantu dr segi kewangan, InsyaAllah.. walaupun as student, I agak sengkek..
And interestingly, I met Aneesah there, my online friend since form 3 I think. We had never met each other before. What a coincidence. It was great meeting you! But there wasn’t enough time to really sit down and talk.. hope we can meet again, someday.
I’m so anxious now, not receiving my AP scores yet. I called home everyday asking whether the results have arrived or not… so unfair.. huhu.. why haven’t I received mine?
Oh.. I miss home already… nak balik.. nak balik… lagi sebulan :p sanggupkah aku bertahan?
I want a digital camera!
My mind wasn’t functional very well these passed few days. Rase serabut yg dunno why. Well, actually I know, but it’s all mixed up.
Hmm.. most of my classmates have received their AP scores… I haven’t. For some reason, I cannot wait..
I know I’m doing very badly.. huhu.. but I want to know the scores…. no matter how high or low there are.. I just want to know…
Anyway, there are many many works to do.. n all of them need me to be infront of this computer, which I dun really like. I mean, sitting 24/7 in front of the computer doing ’serious’ works doesn’t sound so interesting. And my back will hurt.. haha
Let me list out everything that I need to do;
1. Research on China’s education system
2. Research on Neils Bohr and write an essay about him (5 pages).
3. Advertisments for community project.(ni yang malas… huhu .. tapi I yg offer nak buat this part…)
4. Finish Golf assignment… (copy/paste from the internet?! hahaha….)
5.Translate all certificates (dah siap most….)
6. ape lagi yer? tgk drama/movies yg masih belum sempat habes tengok.. haha.. (Kurosagi, Save Your Last Dance for Me, Kimi Wa Petto, Sad Sonata, and one anime, Fruit Basket.. and lots and lots of movies….).. haha.. ni yg paling penting nih.. huhu…takleh tengok skrg.. i’ll feel really2 guilty..
and also.. there are still some books that I haven’t finished reading yet… most of them are tarbiyah books (eheh… dah start.. but tak habes2).. and huyooo, 6 novels! (just counted). I have this habit of buying books la… but it’s hard for me to finish them…. but I like to buy books.. at least I know I spend my money on something useful.
and.. have to do the laundry.. malasnye.. hihi…. tapi kene wat gak.. nanti abes stok baju.. I hate doing laundry… tangan ku agak lemah ler.. lenguh2. haha..
Okies dokies….. another post yg agak selamber.. bilela I’ll feel better again? huhu.. bilela ade mood nak buat post yg agak formal……………
just another personality type quiz..
I am a bit skeptical about quizzes.. haha
Based on this test, I have a very low confidence, I don’t trust others much, spontaneous, and very imaginative…
Maybe it’s true.. but I think that’s an exaggeration…
I think I’m quite a confidence person…. but it depends on situations… Sometimes my confidence level is high, sometimes can fall really low… like I said, it really depends…
One thing for sure, When talking in english, i don’t have any confidence at all..
Oh, I agree I’m spontaneous…
and, it takes times for me to really trust people for me to be able to tell everything…
and oh yeah I love imagination… love so much that I’m afraid that I’m psychotic..haha..
I’m home! at JB ….
Reached here just half an hour ago… 12.10 am…
So tired, but so happy 
What am I going to do tomorrow eh? Sleep all day? Sounds like a good idea.
Better idea, play with Hanaa’… she’s so adorable! I ‘kacau’ed her a bit just now.. she was asleep.. so cute!
I feel kinda messed up at uni.. I feel like not going back at all.. huhuhu…
huhu.. i’m sleepy…
It’s official… we have to apply for the US…
Hmm.. honestly, I don’t feel anything..
Maybe not yet..
Another reality has just come knocking without my invitation.. argh..
How should one expect me to react??
My cousin, whom I mentioned in the post weeks back, is getting worse. My mum called at aroud 4 pm.. I was sleeping.. Haha.. but she whispered to me.. “Mai, tadikan… ” and she told me what happened at my house just this afternoon… scary…that’s all I can say.. I guess he’ll be staying at the hospital, at least for tonight.
Last night, I dreamt of getting the AP results.. quite dissapointing.. huhuh.. but I said something like “I knew it……” … in my dream, I got only band 2 for Calculus BC, band 4 for Calculus AB… band 4 for both Physics…. I hope my real result will be much much much better.. Oh Allah, help me…. (but then, if I’m not going to Melbourne, I shouldn’t be bothered…. waaaaaa… I wanna go to Melbourne…)
Today, I feel guilty… maybe because I procrastinated… all my works for this week (only) have been done..but…… I spent quite sometime on watching dramas.. huhu.. wasted time… I can do a lot more works… which datelines are not so near yet…. at least don’t have to be handed in this week… I feel guilty.. that’s all I wanna say.. haha..
I wanna go back this weekend.. I dun care!!
Geram sebab tak dapat balik jb for this weekend. I miss Hanaa’ ! Nanti bile balik like a month lagi, she’ll be lot bigger! tak best nye…
Kan geram… so today ajak kawan gi shopping di Alamanda.. dah rase sesak nafas duduk lame dlm uniten nih.. Huhu. Baru 2 minggu. Nak balik next week but tak tau boleh ke tak. Yela, our community project nak start next week. And kitorang plan nak buat car wash every weekend.. (tak ternegotiate pulak dengan group members.. buat la sebulan 2 kali ke.. I wanna go back!).
Hmm.. agak membazir gak hari ni.. shopping beli ape yer? Beli satu novel baru, Sophie’s World. Novel ni dari dulu rase nak beli tapi tak terbeli. Actually banyak sangat lagi novel atas rak tuh tak habes bace lagi. But most of them are Jodi Picoult’s. Sekarang ni agak penat bace Jodi Picoult nye.. coz penuh ngan trials and belit2 sket. But I like her style, la.. cume skrg ni nak take a break from a very heavy novel. Tapi rasenye Sophie’s World pun heavy. Ye ke? tengok dulu la.. huhu.. kalau tanak yg heavy bace la Meg Cabot’s .. tapi agak tak best lah cite cenggitu I think…
What else I bought? hmm.. famous amos, 100 grm jer. And beli banyak gak stok makanan.. susu kotak, and snacks… Tak best shopping sendri2.. duit limited la.. Kalau shopping ngan parents tak yah risau sgt. Huhu.. esok plak nak gi Sunway Pyramid.. habes kering wallet ku.. Nak gi Sunway Pyramid coz ade US education fair.. diwajibkan pergi utk survey uni yg ade spring intake…
To tell the truth, rasenye plan nak hantar kitorang ke US takkan jadi.. biarla.. biarla! let me focus, please! Kalau betul derang risau about the honour thing.. derang shud have check about it before sending us to any preparatory programme! They are playing with our future here.. and what about my frens yg ke sini just becoz dun want to go to US in da 1st place.. because dapat Aussie n NZ.. then kene gak pi US..
Takkpon, at least let us choose… we understand we are being sponsored.. but we’re also human..
Isnin, kitorang takde kelas langsung. So, it’s like having a 3 days weekend… so, agak rugi kalau x balik! i wanna go bck.
This computer has started having some problems.. If I use DivX player for too long, it will shut itself down… waa.. agak tak best… Divx kan selalu ade every codec needed to view any video.. so i often use it.
Haaa.. whatever. agak malasnye nak buat ape2 skrg.. takde mood utk buat ape2 selain tdo n tgk drama.., hehe.. banyak baju nak basuh.. nantila, tonite ke…
Wa.. post ni agak melayu n merepek.. biarla.. biarla!
our final semester here started with a quite surprising news from the programme coordinator. Oh, and it was not a pleasant surprise.. uninvinted, and has somewhat distrupted my plan for my whole future.. (exaggerate ke? dun think so.. might be worse..)
Well, it was both a good and a bad news for me…
Ministry of Education [MOE] (our sponsor) decided to force us to apply for the US universities.. instead of Australian or New Zealand unis like what is stated in our offer letter.. the reason: it is confirmed (or maybe less risky) in the US universities to get a degree with honour, unlike in the Australian n NZ uni, where we have to be invited to proceed to honour year after getting a general degree (with gpa 3.0 above, i think)
MOE thinks the system in Australia n NZ is too risky for us. If we come back without an honour, they won’t recognize us.. cannot work/ lower salary /lower quality etc etc.. which defy their original ideas of why they send us overseas in the first place…
At first they want the whole batch to apply to the US, but our coordinator said something about being realistic.. so….
based on our cgpa, the coordinator has chosen 13 (out of 36 jer) students who she thinks are ready for the US universities. So it happens that I am one of those 13 .. Yg geramnye, diwajibkan.. means that, you have no choice.. you cannot apply to Aussie Uni.. just US pls.. I was like.. “but but but I want to go to Melb Uni!”
(first golf, now this!)
The problem is, US intake is in August (Fall) every year. For this fall, we cannot apply anymore.. the deadlines are way over. (my head was screaming “why didn’t they tell us earlier!!!” when I first heard this news) My former classmates pon already accepted by MIT n Carnegie Mellon.. (if anyone read NST a month or so ago, about these 2 people who receive like 10 offers from US universities.. 2004 SPM top-scorers)
Our option: Spring or summer intake .. next fall is out of question I guess.. I don’t want to be stuck here for another year!. (again.. why didn’t they tell us earlier!!!)
But, problems!! most of US universities don’t offer spring or summer intake.. only some, like Boston Uni, Texas at Austin, n bentley (tak penah denga pon) n some other I guess.. so sikit.. Cannot apply to prestigious uni like yale or princeton or illinois at urbana-champaign or purdue or chicago.. harvard (heheh).. or stanford and many2 other US top-ranking uni.. (berangan jer…)
so, our choices are very limited. I don’t want to end up in a just-average-uni .. as I said, I want to go to Melb Uni!!
oh, we did protest.. but like the coordinator said, this sponsor gets to decide everything.. we have contracts..
I’d like to go to the US, if they tell us earlier.. huhuhu.. I know the quality (or whatever) is better there.. lebih adventure.. (yeke?).. n snow.. haha
but it just doesn’t feel right. I have focused on Australia for a whole year… did extensive research on Melb uni.. the surroundings…housing n etc2.. I planned.. but suddenly tukar… (oh, I even know a professor there.. Prof Derek Chan.. head of Science faculty.. he comes here often..)
of course.. kita merancang.. Allah menentukan..
but… if we found out that it is not feasible for us to go this spring.. we will go back to Plan A .. which is applying to aussie n nz… haha.. what a fuss..
like golf.. before this I have never ever thought of studying in the US. it sounds scary.. duncha think? me, the US? I feel like laughing..
oh, any recommendation of uni?? or specific city? I really have no idea about US .. we have to list out 5 uni by this friday…
Hoho.
I am so useless today. Too free …
All classes for today were cancelled. No classes tomorrow. And on monday we’ll only start at 5 for Golf class. 4 days of lazing around…. It doesn’t feel so good. I was used to being busy. I feel guilty .. teheehee…
I wanted to go back to JB, but the term just started last monday. It doesn’t feel right to go back … And my parents are coming, anyway. To attend a wedding and also send my sis back to UIA. (She sounds like a thing when I put it in that way… send back.. huhu). Jangan mare... Anyway, she just got back from an educational trip in Korea. Oh, she sure is having a lot of fun studying engineering.. last year she went to Japan.. and she’ll be going to Langkawi sometime soon. Jeles la jugak aku ni, suwah…
About applying to the US. I did some research… and really really not many universities accept spring admission. I guess I should just concentrate on australian universities… it’s not so common to enter in 2nd semester in the US , I guess… It is relatively easy in Australia and Canada I heard…
The US universities want higher TOEFL and SAT scores anyway.. I might not have a chance….
When will our sponsor declare that it is okay for us to apply to Canada and the UK too???? Maybe never…. Oh, please, Mai.. I have to get over it.. UK UK UK… keep on dreaming… and of course, Allah knows best…
Our juniors will only go through a year course. Hmm… we have to attend one extra semester.. But at least it is an easy semester. Oh, just hope it’ll really be easy for me. And as for the juniors.. they are extra stressed-up because of their packed schedule.. yela, everything is crammed up in only year…
I didn’t eat properly today. I was too lazy to go out and eat.. too lazy to get change into proper clothes… So I ended up eating my crackers with tuna… and yummy chewies vitamin c (that i consume like gula2 while watching dramas)… fizzy cola (sweets), some goreng pisang that a kakak gave me when she came.. 3 kotak air susu low fat.. haha .. a muesli bar… what else? hmm.. agak mengarut makanan… I’m so hungry now…
One of my roomates brings a car.. yeye! huhu.. it is certainly a great convenience.. no more walking to class when there’s no busses… (well, maybe once in a while for the sake of exercising.. haha.. Golf is useless if i want to burn some more fat.. haha… didn’t i tell that I gained weight while on holiday!! I hate it.. but I love eating.. hehe.. home-cooking dishes are the best!!.. That’s one of the reason why I kinda hate going back home.. all the lauks are irresistable… huhu…)
We all have to do a community project… My group plans to raise donation for an organizatinal body.. and we thought car wash can give us many profits..
We’ll also sell cookies. My friend, Azu, will make them.. yummies!!
Oh, it’s 1.24 am.. i better go to sleep..
where’d you go, i miss you so, seems like it’s been forever, since u’ve been gone, pls come back home…
hey syida, how r u? we all miss you!!!! sooo much…. I want my darling back!!
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New semester has started on Monday. I reached KL on friday night … haha. So semangat one… No la, I came early to see Syida off…
Anyway, when I received the timetable, I was quite relieved. It was more flexible than the timetable before, more importantly, no saturday classes. And, we have Golf as our co-curicular activity this sem! haha, i just cannot imagine myself playing golf. Tak pernah terfikir…. Living in Uniten is full of surprises, huh?
So far, classes are quite boring. (But Comparative Religion is interesting!). Mr Joe (Physics) managed to call my name a couple of times, though. Mostly to wake me up from my day-dreaming… I didn’t sleep.. but I was somewhere else.. huhu.. That guy, he notices everything. (I saw everything, you know! I watch over everyone, not only Esther!).. teheehee…
This sem, we are taking 5 subjects. Physics, Specialist Math (that includes statistics), English for Science & Technology, Comparative Religion and Golf… Oh, and also, community project is incorporated in our timetable, too.
And of course, we receive juniors. First impression, not so good.. (What an arrogant bunch of kids.. huahaha). But now, okayla… but still, I have some skepticsm (sp?).. cannot help la feeling that when you are the senior. But ( so many ‘but’ in this paragraph) I am looking forward to get to know them more closely and I am more than willing to help in any way…
Oh, almost forgot. Our coordinator just told us that we can apply to the US universities.. besides Australian and New Zealand. I was like “What?!! Why didn’t they tell us earlier…”. So I did a little research.. and found out that only some (sikit sgt) universities offer Spring intake (January). The rest only offer Summer intake… So, I don’t think I’ll apply to the US.. I don’t want to stay here any longer (if I had to go next August instead..). Besides, I am enthusiastic about Melbourne since long ago… But, if I found a good university that offer spring intake, I’ll try to apply.. but so far, none.. (MIT offers spring intake, though………. keep on dreaming, la!!! haha).
Hish, talking about applying reminds me of AP results that we haven’t received. Agak takut!.
To all Muslims, please pray for the fellow muslims in palestine…