A little of a lot of things…
Are you all afraid?
You should be.
I am.
I am afraid that I am the poison. Poisoning the well.
Ink that spoilt the milk.
without realizing it…
That’s why Ilmu is so important. Not only that… Ilmu with the right fikrah.. not only that.. Ilmu with the right fikrah and amal…
But many don’t care. Follow their heart desire… thinking they are right while they are wrong. Think that they are the most brilliant while actually they are the stupidiest.
I am so afraid I am one of these people…
Nauzubillah min zalik…
Allahumma fakihna fiddin…
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Just a thought.. mmm.. not really a thought pon..
Just now I watched “bawang putih bawang merah”, an indonesian drama series… modernized bawang putih bawang merah. (before this Malim Kundang.. ekeke.. jadi batu coz accident ngan lori simen…)
Si bawang merah marah dengan mak die.. sukahati je cakap “Mama munafik! tadi bilang begini! sekarang lain!” Lebei kurang la.. but I was really shocked dengar perkataan munafik tuh.. senang2 ajer ye. Dengan mak die pulak tuh. Well, maybe la kot indonesian dah biase gune that term utk cakap penipu.. but still…..
Anyway, this series’s jalan cerita is exactly the same ngan our lagenda bawang putih bawang merah.. mak tiri bunuh mak betul, n then dera bawang putih (actly name die Alya.. n bwang merah Siska.. lawo pulak tuh dedua). Tapi agak tensen la cerite ni… mane taknye, si heroin (Alya) lemah sangat.. and baik terlampau2. Ngak logikal sih!
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I always see others’ flaws..
I see mine, too…
I know my flaws. When I ask people what they don’t like about me, what are my flaws, actually I know and I aware that I did that. Sometimes rase geram.. lagi? ape lagi? I know that.. but other than that? ramai yang just geleng2 je.. same ade betul takde.. or derang rase tak sampai ati nak bagi tau saye (but mane bleh.. I’m trying to improve myself here).
I know the fact that I’m not a good person. Oh, so many things I did…
But I cannot stand people who think they are so good and wara’….
I wonder… when people did something wrong, betul ke derang tak perasan??
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I am so jealous of people who can write exactly what they are thinking. I am so jealous of people who can write such structured and beautifully written article… or thoughts.. or even blog entries.. Not just fragments like mine..
My thoughts are scattered.. in pieces. But I have this strong urge to write. But I can’t….
Is it practice or just talent?
Or maybe because of how one’s brain works…
I admit that I can’t concentrate on one thing for long. My thoughts and ideas come and go so quickly. If I didn’t write it this very instant, it wud never come again. And then a lot of blanks…. like right now…
. . . dot dot dot…
Well, this is when ‘draft’ comes in, kan… rangka.. catat dulu everything.. and baru la cantum the pieces together later on.
But, huhu… I write when I feel like too… (uish, ape ni mai? tak paham… )
Anyway, practice and practice and practice.. and of course, read a lot more!
Hoho.. nasib baik tak buat course like literature or language, kan.. I wud fail…
Physics suits me then…HOPEFULLY!
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Erm, sometimes I just couldn’t help but think that I’m unique…
But then, semua orang pun unique and have different abilities/way of thinking/talents…
So, that makes semua orang normal..
So, I’m normal…
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Teringat I discussed with my friend about psychological disorder…
Well, everyone has some sort of psychological disorder at some degree…
Mild OCD, mild bipolar, mild anxiety, mild depression, inferiority complex…that creates unique individuals..
As for me, I have mild bipolar kot.. (haha, suka hati je).. yela, senang rase gembira.. n tak asal2 sedih…
Or maybe I’m really a maniac.. sometimes I imagine things…
well.. the conclusion is, kalau semua orang is so normal… tak best la kan.. kalau berkawan pun kite suke kawan ngan orang yang gile-gile sket… memang la bukan gile betul, just that ade traits yang unique… that make a person, a person…
uh, just that, hopefully the psychological disorder tak jadi teruk.. jadi betul kang. I don’t want to be a scizophrenic. Mild-mild sudah la… (uish ape ni again?)
Eh, I’m not a medic student.. so.. ni just cakap-cakap je… just my opinion
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So… there goes randomness! Seronoknye….
salam. knp ni mai? ana nggak paham sih entri kali ini. sesuatu mgganggu pemikiranmu?
Comment by alif — August 30, 2006 @ 3:46 am
wah!!! malim kundang dah jadi batu dah???!!!!
lori simen??!!!
hahahaha!!! pandai btul director tuh tulis citer!!!:P
hmmm…….i miss you really…sob..sob…
Comment by syida — August 30, 2006 @ 7:22 am
Alif:
hehe.. tak paham ke? inilah my pieces of thoughts.. my thoughts yang melompat-lompat… reflections of myself n soul.. chewah.. haha.
kan I divided those thoughts kan.. so kalau ade — tu maknenye dah masuk tajuk lain aa tuh.. takde kene mengena antara satu sama lain..
Syida:
Ehehe.. tau takpe director tuh.. biasela nak ikut lagenda.. nanti bwg putih bwg merah pon mestila last2 die dpt ‘putera’ ensem n kaye haha
Comment by Mai K D — August 30, 2006 @ 7:44 am
random thought eh…
to reach the perfection of anything, the journey always involve endurance and patience, yet nobody will reach the ultimate perfection
Comment by hafiz — August 30, 2006 @ 1:59 pm
true2…
tapi.. pemalasnye saye…
But i seriously think it’s talent more than anything else….
Comment by Mai K D — August 30, 2006 @ 4:47 pm
Haha, best lah randomness. It’s like many many different entries right after one another. And kalau dah naturally thoughts tu datang camtu, fine lah kan. Nak susun-susun jadi payah pulak.
Oh, yeah, how come ramai Indonesian actresses/models muka cam omputeh je… O_o My mother pun complain bila tengok muzik video band-band Indon tu, female model dia semua kulit putih, muka Caucasian gila. “Tak real lah”, she said. ^^ I’ve watch bawang putih bawang merah once, kat dalam bas masa nak balik hostel.
Kalau loghat tak Indon mesti I’ll never realise they’re Indonesian…
Haha, I think I might have mild OCD kot. Tu pun in certain areas je, like webdesign. “Ni mesti align dengan ni, kena balance perfectly, kena ni kena tu…” sampai puas hati. Even if it means working on it till 4 am. =/
Congratulations on your results too, it sounds awesome to me.
Comment by Aneesah — September 1, 2006 @ 5:28 am
indonesian kan ramai kacukan belanda.. kan belanda lame gile jajah derang.. so mmg muka belanda abes la.. tengok Siska tu.. lawo! sayangnye , jahat amat.. haha..
Mild OCD bagusla
i mean, kerja semua nak perfect.. tak ambik ringan tugas2. Cuba bile excessive yg tak bagus tuh. Kena sendiri pandai2 balance 
Thanks!
Comment by Mai K D — September 1, 2006 @ 7:24 am
talent pun kene diusahakan jugak
tak dtg cam tu. kalau lahir ngan talent tu pun, sure akan berkarat kalau tak digunekan/praktis.
takpe la rasa2 cam masing2 ada psychological problems ahaks! :p mmg ada pun..mildly! tp kalau tgk org sakit mental betul2..fuh bersyukur betul kita ni kire “normal”
ala takpe la random thoughts pun. that’s how our brain works ah!
Comment by Aliya — September 1, 2006 @ 11:42 am
hehe.. betul2.. I think I wasted my talents too.. bukan in writing, tapi melukis… dah berkarat…
tula.. alhamdulillah takde sakit mental betul2.. tapi takut je in the future.. my cousin, dah 20 lebei baru dpt scizo… scary.
Comment by Mai K D — September 2, 2006 @ 1:40 am
Hey’a! I found your blog accidentally on google when searching for “How can I be healthy?” Interesting, eh? Anyway, I noticed you inquiry about whether good writing comes from talent or practice. As someone who has been a writer her whole life, I thought I’d leave you a comment about it!
I do believe any art [be it writing, visual art, sports, dance, business, public speaking] takes a talent, but that each and every individual has their own individual talent. So, my advice to you is to practice and hone any skill you want to develop. When I got to college, I took it upon myself to become a grammar expert. That in itself is very important - ‘cause once you know the rules, you can break ‘em with style.
As far as creativity goes, I had a process: I’d figure out what kind of writing I wanted to do [One of my choices was to learn to write “stream of conscious” writing, which includes hardly any grammar, punctuation, or capitolization.] - and then I made a new journal layout and begin practicing that style. If you want to write complete thoughts, demand yourself to take small steps: Try writing topic sentences or titles to guide an entry to one focus. Or, explore some of your thoughts deeper. If you write out a bunch of fragments - and that’s what comes easy to you, then go back afterwards and fill in some more information! Find what works for you.
I can’t read the other language you use, but from what I can tell, you’ve got something inside you worth honing!
- Dolci
Comment by Dolci — April 4, 2007 @ 7:06 am
don’t make some troubles from what we’re not believe.guide our standing.
Comment by putra — April 19, 2008 @ 11:14 pm