mkderwish…

I talked with a non-muslim friend of mine today. She took psychology. And she started to talk about how we perceive the world. How what we see maybe is not what really there is. How when we look up at the sky.. we don’t just go.. “Oh, the sky, is blue..” .. we should have think about why it is blue.. came the wavelength topic.. then how your green maybe not the same with my green. How we can take a look at only an ordinary bottle and there are just too many things to say about it.

I ponder. Subhana-Allah. Allah has taught us to think of all this. We don’t need psychology as a subject to be knocked some sense into us. Just flip through the quran, you’ll find many many many ayaah that encourage us to think… that invite us to do research.. to think.. to think… to think… to think! And everything will sum up and conclude to only one answer: ALLAH.

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.
Rasakah kamu, nikmat paling agung yang sudah kau miliki??? rasakah aku?

1.(Tuhan) Yang Maha Pemurah serta melimpah-limpah rahmatNya.
2. Dia lah Yang telah mengajarkan Al-Quran.
3. Dia lah Yang telah menciptakan manusia;
4. Dia lah Yang telah membolehkan manusia (bertutur) memberi dan menerima kenyataan.
5. matahari dan bulan beredar Dengan peraturan dan hitungan Yang tertentu;
6. dan tumbuh-tumbuhan Yang melata serta pohon-pohon kayu-kayan, masing-masing tunduk menurut peraturanNya.
7. dan langit dijadikannya (bumbung) tinggi, serta ia mengadakan undang-undang dan peraturan neraca keadilan,
8. supaya kamu tidak melampaui batas Dalam menjalankan keadilan;
9. dan betulkanlah cara menimbang itu Dengan adil, serta janganlah kamu mengurangi barang Yang ditimbang.
10. dan bumi pula dijadikannya rata untuk kegunaan manusia dan makhluk-makhlukNya Yang lain:
11. terdapat padanya berbagai jenis buah-buahan dan pohon-pohon kurma Yang ada kelopak-kelopak mayang;
12. demikian juga terdapat biji-bijian Yang ada jerami serta daun, dan terdapat lagi bunga-bungaan Yang harum;
13. maka Yang mana satu di antara nikmat-nikmat Tuhan kamu, Yang kamu hendak dustakan (Wahai umat manusia dan jin)?

I said to her… “Think more! …”

May Allah grant her His guidance. And to me too… and to all of us..

Ya Allah, guide me throughout!

Maimunah bint al-Harith was one of the noble wives of Prophet Mohamed (PBUH). Before marring the Prophet she was called Barra, but after they got married, he called her Maimunah, which means, “Blessed”. She lived with the Prophet for only three years. She was known for her great generosity and her love and devotion to Allah.

Maimunah’s sister, Umm al-Fadl Lubaba, was the mother of Abdullah ibn Abbas, the son of one of the uncles of Prophet Mohamed (PBUH) and the one of the wisest of his companions.

Zainab bint Khuzayma, Umm al Muminin, was also her half-sister.

Her other sisters included Asma bint Umays, the wife of Ja’far ibn Abi Talib, and Salmah bint Umays, the wife of Hamza, the “Lion of Allah”.

Her full sisters were Lubaba, Asmah and Izza. Maimunah was thus one of the ‘Ahlul- Bayt’, (the people of the House), not only by the virtue of being a wife of Prophet Mohamed (PBUH), but also because she was related to him.

Zayd bin Arqam related that the Messenger of Allah (PBUH) said:

“I implore you by Allah! The People of my House!” three times.

Zayd asked who were the People of the House, and Prophet Mohamed (PBUH), said:

“The family of Ali ibn Abi Talib, the family of Jafar ibn Abi Talib, the family Aqil ibn Abi Talib, and the family of Al Abbas ibn Abdal Muttalib.”

Maimunah wanted to be one of the wives of Prophet Mohamed (PBUH), so she went to her sister, Umm al Fadl to talk to her about that and she, in returm, spoke to her husband, al-Abbas. Al-Abbas immediately went to the Prophet (PBUH) with Maimunah’s offer of to marry him and her proposal was accepted.

When she received this great news she was on a camel. She immediately got off the camel and said: “The camel and what is on it is for the Messenger of Allah (PBUH).”

They got married in the month of Shawwal in 7 AH, when the Prophet was sixty years old and she was thirty-six years old, just after the Muslims of Medina were permitted to visit Mecca under the terms of the treaty of Hudaybiyya to perform umra. Allah Almighty sent the following ayat about this:

“Any believing woman who dedicates herself to the Prophet if the Prophet wishes to wed her, that is only for thee and not for the believers”. (Quran 33:50)

She was known for her good nature. She never quarreled or disputed with any of the Prophet’s other wives.

A’isha said about her, “Among us, she had the most fear of Allah and did the most to maintain ties of kinship.”

It was in her room that Prophet Mohamed (PBUH) first began to feel the effects of what became his final illness and asked the permission of his wives to stay in A’isha’s room while it lasted.

She devoted her whole life to the worship of Allah, and whenever she saw anything wrong she used to changed it with her own hands.

After Prophet Mohamed (PBUH) died, Maimunah continued to live in Medina for another forty years. She died at the age of eighty, in 51 AH, (may Allah be pleased with her), being the last of the Prophet’s wives to die.

She asked to be buried where she had married the Prophet at Saraf and her request was carried out.

It was related that at the funeral of Maimunah, Ibn Abbas said: “This is the wife of Allah’s Messenger, (PBUH) so when you lift her bier, do not shake her or disturb her, but be gentle.”

source: islamonline.com
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Insya’Allah. Be generous, devote all your love, all your fear, all your life, to Allah subhanahu wataala.

Almost a week without update. Mum’s been asking me to update. Hihi…

I did post something, if any of you noticed. But I ended up deleting it. Somehow I felt handicapped. This one week, I have 3 entries written, saved as drafts. Jiwa kacau, as one of my friends said. Jiwa kacau, eh? I don’t know. Saye biase je semenanye.. takde hape.. I’m fine, really. Tak caye tanye my housemate

Anyway, I think I’m losing the momentum. This week, I skipped both IT lectures. The reasons? hmmm, I made up many reasons… but I think the ultimate one is, without doubt.. laziness. Assignment also was handed in the very last minute. With 55% plagiarism count (For IT subject, we have to hand in our assignment online and we have this plagiarism ‘detector’ or something.. the more the percentage, means, more copy-paste.. I’m so doomed…before this, paling banyak was 20%). But no worries, all! this is only applicable to IT subject only… I mean, I’m still paying attention in maths, physics and astro.. siap ade study group sendri2 lagi for physics.

Yesterday UMIS (Uni of Melb Islamic Society) organized a free BBQ in conjunction with the Islamic Awareness Week that will running throughout next week. And since I was free *cough*skipping IT lecture*cough*, I volunteered to serve the BBQ for the girls. And, all attendees for the BBQ had to sign the attendence form kan.. whilst I was writing my name, there was this sister watching me … and said “Maimunah… Masya’Allah! what a lovely name! ” … hehe.. I was happy.. because you know what… if I were in M’sia.. the only respond I’ll get when I tell people my name is : “Eh, apesal name awak traditional sangat? mcm orang tua?” .. ni la orang m’sia.. tak sensetif betul.. huhu.. cuba jangan judge a name tue ke mude… judge by the meaning la.. I love my name tau.. I feel that my whole life is blessed by Allah. (Maimunah means yang diberkati).

Terasa bagaikan minggu ini bahagia sekali kerana saya tidak ada lab! for both astronomy and physics

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Acceptance. I think I have an issue. With acceptance. I’m skeptical. I’m worried. I’m paranoid. I’m tired, too. What happened that made me so skeptical? so paranoid?

I wish I can be more open. But I’m skeptical. And I’m tired.

I wish I can say whatever I want. But I’m worried. I’m paranoid.

Pointless.

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Do you know, astronomers just found a planet in other solar system that might have some form of life, at last, just days ago. This astronomers, they work days and nights to search for this kind of planet. For years already.

Isn’t it interesting to know that we are not the only ‘human’ in this universe?

Wallahua’lam… Only He knows what’s best.

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Do you know about relativity? Twin paradox? Time dilation? How if you move fast enough, time will pass more slowly?

I was beranganing yesterday. I wish I could go on a very fast rocket or jet or whatever, out, out from the earth’s atmosphere.. jauh jauh sekali.. laju.. laju sekali.. near the speed of light.. say, only 10 days … then when I come back to the earth.. actually 5 years has passed.. everything has passed.. I don’t have to endure the pain of waiting.. (note that I don’t actually calculate, okay.. so i’m not sure for 10 days.. how many days actually on earth). (And I’m lebih muda dari semua, too! hihi .. lebih muda dari piah, even!)

Waste of time, mai.. waste of time…

understand, we cannot escape…

understand, that whatever pun, we have to bear with it.. be brave and up to the challenge!

Teringat kisah rama-rama nak keluar dari kepompong.. do you remember?

Wallahua’lam.. only He knows what’s best.

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Today, class will start at 11. Math then Physics. Ended at one.

Surprisingly, my astro’s mid term result was quite okay. More than what I expected! I think the lecturer was so generous.. I was hentaming all the way for this one question and she still gave me full marks.. huhu.. Alhamdulillah..

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Ma, sorry ma.. munah keluar malam.. hihi..
ni mase rabu lepas.. ANZAC day, so uni cuti. Kawan munah terasa bosan duduk di umah, n ktorang keluar gi restaurant yang baru bukak di Lygon street nih.. restaurant melayu.. malam tuh full house.. so ktorang tapau teh tarik n roti john.. then singgah this park.. duduk-duduk.. berbual… main patung-patung.. macam kanak-kanak..

Takleh lawan teh tarik and roti john kat mesia.. kecik gler.. $4! chekik darah… kat m’sia, RM 2.50 dapat yang panjang tuh.. sedap plak tuh.. hmm.. tak berbaloi…

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I think my english is deteriorating instead of improving since I came here.. sigh sigh sigh..

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Awan tebal sekali pagi ni. Tak nampak langit. Tak nampak matahari. Hanya cahaya dibalik awan yang tebal… magnifique!

It’s getting cooooolder!!!! Autumn is here.

Dalam umah pakai sweater tebal and muffler. Haha. Stokin tebal sudah semesti. Kadang-kadang siap pakai gloves. Tapi susah nak type. Macam budak yang amat jakun. Tapi serious sejuk… huhu.

Tidur sedap sekali. Quilt tebal… so warm..

Malam cepat sangat.. so cepat rasa ngantuk… menyebabkan saye tidur banyak sekali. Dah lah sejuk.. nak bangun awal for stay up mmg cabaran yang amat mendugakan lah.. walaupun tidur awal sekali (like around 8!) Unbelievable me..

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Oh ye.. kepada rakan-rakan di M’sia.. jangan la main-main miskol ana… sebab ana takkan tau sape yg miskol.. sbb kalau international number, dia takkan display.. so jangan la terasa kecewa jika ana tidak membalas miskol anda yer.. msg je la kalau rindu.. haha.. ala.. 20 sen mesia ajer!! kat sini international sms $0.35 tau… huhu..

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It’s 9.04 am.. I better prepare myself for class! till next time…

Alhamdulillah. Thumma Alhamdulillah.

The sun is rising..

It’s weekend! I’m happy. Feels like I can finally breath again.
Plenty of time to think and finish my group project.

Got my math test result already. Alhamdulillah
Cannot wait for my physics result.

I’m not so thrilled to know my astro’s result, though.

I want to go back.. fly… I want to fly..

My friend’s cooking right now. Nasi lemak. Yumminess. Lapo dah!

I want to thank you… because you finally understand.. you know who you are …

don’t worry!!!

Bile laaa nak siaaap …
my progress amat lembap sekali…

banyak nye tido kebelakangan ni..

tadi pening! tdo dulu lepas maghrib dengan harapan pening hilang.. baru bangun balik, nak siapkan kerja.. alhamdulillah pening dah surut,, boleh sambung kerja! tapi, asal update blog plak nih ? :p

esok kene submit this assignment.

esok juga ade astro lab! huhu.. my fren said susah… kene bace manual betul2! bile yer nak bace??

p/s to nadiah: ana tak bangun semalam konon je promise to myself la.. ngarut je.. miss u too .. help me help me…

edit: it’s now 4:57 am … dah siap.. dah validated.. ok when viewed in IE.. tapi kat mozilla tak jadi! cane nih? I’m sooo tak reti lar. View kat Opera lagi lah horror. Susah betul banyak2 sgt browser ni.. Submit aje la.. malam esok kalau sempat, edit lagi! sekarang otak dah beku. Time to start bace astronomy pulak! otak… cair la balik..

Warning: If you don’t like ketidakseriussan .. don’t read on.. I’m in a strange mood today…
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Alhamdulillah.

Tests sudah berlalu semua. Sekejap je. Dua hari je untuk test.

Alhamdulillah. Maths dan Fizik tak susah sangat. Walaupun saye tak study sgt. Sbb yang ditest dah penah belajar mase di uniten.. dah byk buat latihan mase di uniten.. tatau la nanti ble masuk bab tak pernah belajar, how can I cope.

Astronomy susah. Alhamdulillah jugak … sbb ini memberi pengajaran kepada saye supaya bace betul-betul dan try buat soalan-soalan berkaitan. Waah.. amat sukar sekali memujuk diri :p

Haven’t I told you that I so don’t like the way uni works. In that sense that they prepare powerpoint slides as lecture notes… I don’t like that… huhu. I miss Mr Joe, my physics lecturer back in Uniten. He wrote notes at the whiteboard and we had to copy. His notes is soooo good, man. Even if you didn’t listen to his lecture, you’d understand the concept/theory by just reading his notes. (Well, I slept thru most of his classes :p .. habes salin notes, mula la tido … so I just relied on his notes for exam/test). I love reading handwriting notes or notes that I did myself. Lecture notes yang ditaip, I cannot read them! Tak make sense to me.. ironic gak.. because my handwriting selalunya tak readable… haha. But that’s what I like.. maybe because I know where I was going… i mean, I did the notes myself.. kalau lecture notes yang diprepare gune comp, dah la amat plain.. then we don’t really know what’s going on.. where it’s heading.. (make sense ke.. )

I know, I know… so the penyelesaian ialah buat note sendiri.. tapi… you know la.. banyak je alasan boleh ditulis disini.. so I better skip that.. :p

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Shesh… I think I need to undergo speech therapy session la… sometimes I speak so mengarutly or laju (or both at the same time) that even I myself cannot comprehend… seriously! selalu je saye tak paham ape yang saye cakapkan… ape lagi orang disekeliling… i always ended up memalukan diri sendiri.. hmm…

and.. ade tak course ‘organizing ur brain’ ? I always have this problem, not able to say/write what I intend to.. selalu membuatkan orang salah interpret.. I think a lot… and I wish I can just let the thought flows ‘happily’ in writing or in percakapan…

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Oh, I got assignments…

Dulu, mase kecik2.. mase sekolah, selalu denga kakak2/abang2 yang kat uni selalu ckp.. oh, ade assignment belambak.. assignment kene submit… assignment.. assignment…

macam tak percaye yang saye pun dah uni daaa…

saye pun ade assignment! (ceh macam bangge pulak.. padahal I’m suffering nak menyiapkannye.. huhu)

Wish me all the best in finishing the assignment. For those who know about website making and stuff, my assignment ialah kene buat one CSS file for a XML site.. easy peasy kan… tapi I haven’t started… and things can get real ugly when you’re doing them at the very last minute … have to submit this Thursday.

Again.. the fact that I got assignments for this subject (Tech for Information System) makes me wonder… why oh why! This is only an elective for me.. but yet this subject gives me most of the assignments that I have to do for this semester…. other core subjects takde assignment pun.. except math, tu pun tak sekerap this IT subject.. isk2… menyesal? taknak menyesal!!

It’s only 7.52 pm.. yet I feel so sleepy already! maghrib is at around 6 pm.. and Isya 7.15 pm.. malam datang awal sekali.. terasa dah larut malam sekarang ni.. tapi baru nak dekat kol 8! psycho betul… bile ingat macam dah larut malam.. otak mula la nak suruh tido.. huhu. Malam yang panjang… means? banyak la mase untuk siapkan assignment!! weeeee…..

Oh! suddenly it’s raining! oh, we can expect a cooooold night, tonight! (Allahumma soyyiban nafi’a)

ngantuk… huhu… sleepy+it’s raining (wau! so tempting)… I’m gonna sleep.. I’ll wake up early to try and start my assignment! InsyaAllah.. promise to myself…

maka apakah mereka tidak berjalan di muka bumi, lalu mereka mempunyai hati yang dengan itu mereka dapat memahami atau mempunyai telinga yang dengan itu mereka dapat mendengar? Karena sesungguhnya bukanlah mata itu yang buta, tetapi yang buta, ialah hati yang di dalam dada.

Do they not travel through the land, so that their hearts (and minds) may thus learn wisdom and their ears may thus learn to hear? Truly it is not their eyes that are blind, but their hearts which are in their breasts.

Al-Hajj:46

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The pic was taken last week at Wilson Promontory.

Math test coming up this 11 am.
Astronomy will follow at 1 pm.

Doakan ana..

I was tagged again. By Umayr.

A simple one this time.

Take a snapshot of your desktop (print screen).

Then upload it for others to see.

Then tag others.

So here goes my desktop.

I miss my family

Now I’m tagging Piah or Aya! komputer kat umah mesti gambo anime betul tak??

huhu… I know! I need to study………… oh astro.. oh maths.. oh physics…

okay, I’ll go and study now..

I know I shouldn’t write this entry. I am guilty. I am guilty. Guilty Pleasure.

I have 3 tests coming up. Two on Monday and another one on Tuesday. But I haven’t started my revision yet. How I yearn to read the big bulky astronomy book. How I yearn to do the oh-so-many math tutorial questions. How I yearn to understand all the complicated concepts taught in Physics. How I yearn to study. But why? why it is so hard to start?

Only 2 days remain before my Easter break ends. Where has the one week gone?

Let me see.

3 days of conference.

2 days of camping.

1 whole day in Clayton.

1 whole day shopping and ‘circling’ Melbourne city.

Today.

And Tomorrow.

Then Monday!

Canberra and Adelaide got 2 weeks break. Not fair!

Study Mai! Study Muna!

I want to elaborate more on the ‘things’ I did… but the internet connection is kinda moody right now. So cannot kacau-kacau sangat. hemph.

I know… I need to study. No need to remind me again… hemph…

Feel like posting this jugak… sila buka mp3 player anda.. dan cari lagu ini.. dan mari bernasyid bersama-sama..

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