Promise me you won’t say things like I’m a dramaqueen or mengada or poyo or things like dat if you want to proceed reading.
I’m at uni right now.. days to go before internet is back in my room.
But I want to write.
It’s the time again.
when all sorts of things overwhelm me.
and all i want to do is cry and cry
but i cant
Allahumma inni a’uzubika minal hammi wal hazan..
miss it sooo much.
Internet at my room has been suspended. I’ve reached the usage limit.
Malas nak bayo utk recharge.. tunggu next month punye quota aje!
so, till then.. this blog won’t be updated la kot..
p/s: I’ve bought ticket balik mesia already! 8th Dec - 20th Feb … see u all my frens! tak sabo nak balik.. tulis date ni dlm diary masing2!.. buat appoinment ngan ana.. hehe..
nak balik.. nak balik! Right now we all are eyeing this particular airlines, namenye Tiger Airways, singaporenye budget airlines. Seriyes murah… tapi to Singapore la.. a plus for me 
my friends lain bleh amek domestic flight from senai. Wah.. tak sabonye nak balik….
back 2 reality, pls! class will start in 2 days time..
so many things in mind.. find some time and organize it, will you? muhasabah
Winter break nak abes… rase cam “Ala….” . On the contrary, I’m excited actually. Starting new sem.. new subject, new motivation 
. Tak menyesal tak balik M’sia. Holiday pun amat terisi…
‘Found’ this days ago.. when I kinda feel down. Ubat kepada keresahan hati, pembina kekuatan jiwa….man, HE knows us really! He has given us the guidelines… everything that we gotta do… tinggal buat aje.. hanya aku yang selalu lupa….
~Al-Hijr:97-99
Subjects for this semester:
- Physics B
- Mathematics B
- Applied Mathematics
- From Plato to Einstein
Timetable is out and can be edited. I managed to cram lectures and classes on Monday (from 9 to 5) so that I won’t be as tensed as last semester whenever weekend is approaching.
Only 1 lab session per week. A bit relieved.
Actually I’m a bit worried about taking the history & philosophy of science’s subject (From Plato to Einstein). It’s philosophy… hmmm… require lots of reading, of course… essay writing, compulsory! … but what make me worry the most is the fact that it’s a philosophy subject… you get the idea… when people become too philosophical… um, faham tak.. dia melibatkan pemikiran… and I’ve went through the syllabus and some of the topics include religious thoughts… it’s my own insecurities, kot.. because I’m not so knowledgeable… just takut when it comes to debating.. hopefully it won’t involve that…
tapi menariklah.. we’ll learn the history from around 1000 BCE till 2000 AD .. that includes zaman kegemilangan islam.. yup they highlighted that, siap tulis ‘rise of Islam’ and call zaman abassiyah semua tu ‘the medieval period’.. cumanya…this is from western persepective, kan.. well, we’ll see nanti camne they present it..
hmm.. maybe I’ve thought too much..
ape-ape pun… ingat balik… kenapa kita belajar semua ni…
niat.. niat tu penting..
so cliche right, but mmg itu la! itu la benda yang memang perlu sentiasa dlm otak kita.. berfokus.. that’s it..
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currently tengah berangan if buat 5 years kat sni.. berangan tu best…
abah kate berangan tu doa.. betul tak abah?
I’m tired of pretending. Sometimes it has become so natural that I don’t even realize it.
What defines you?
Sometimes I think too much.. too much till I’m not even sure what to say out loud anymore…
Jaga hati.. jaga hati.. jaga hati.. pesanan my dear ustazah..
Perjalanan ini.. perjalanan rohani.. mencari diri.. moga sentiasa dipimpin ILAHI…
Winter yang sejuk… dan hatiku yang beku…
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lack of updates… because lack of inspiration, kot… or as I said earlier, think too much till not even sure what to write anymore..
next week new semester will start… semoga semuanya baik2 saja..
Yesterday we went to Mt Buller for our ’ski trip’ although I didn’t try skiing. I only played toboggan (or however you spell it) and rode the chair lift.
Adik-adikku sekalian (or abang dan kakakku jua)… jangan jeles.. dtg la sini, meh..
This is the start of my (or our) jakunness..
dalam bas on the way up
Ni dari atas, tempat start main toboggan.. then akan meluncur ke bawah.. best2!
solat on snowww….
us.. with our toboggans.. and sape punye kete jadi mangsa..
kami naik chair lift tu.. scenery yang amat breathtaking! subhanAllah! kitorang naik 2 rounds.. sejuk sangat atas tu.. memang balut muka ngan muffler la.. tangan pun amat sakit.. sejuk yang menyucuk2 tulang!
ni amek dari chair lift tu.. nampak cam dekat ngan snow tapi ekceli tinggi tau.. kasut ku yang lawo :p
mase sampai tu, it was snowing dengan lebatnye sekali!.. seronok.. I recorded lots of videos.. nnt balik summer nnt munah tunjuk kat umah eh.. tak sabo nak balik.. huhu..
Malam tadi ada malam amal palestin. Ada macam-macam persembahan. Dan ada auction posters. I’m amazed how some of us bid for a very high price. Impressed. When they all were bidding, I was busy remembering the figures in my netbank account. Waa.. dey all seriously got much money… Well, for me, obviously cannot lawan the bid… memula cam nak gak la try.. tapi bid derang cepat betul naik sampai melebihi my limit yang telah diset dalam kepala.. keadaan akaun tidak mengizinkan.. huhu..
tapi.. bagusla.. rase cam jeles gak derang dpt derma banyak2.. ekcely kalau derang nak sgt poster tu, bole je print sendri.. tapi best la bid bid gini.. senang nak kumpul derma cepat… berlumba-lumba buat kebajikan…
well, its the least we could do for saudara kita di palestine tu…
kesimpulannya… gomen perlulah mengincrease allowance pelajar supaya pelajar boleh membuat amal kebajikan tanpa rasa was-was… gomen pun akan dpt sahamnye jugak
tetibe kawan cakap..
buka page ni asik gambo awan aje..
asik ckp psl awan je..
boring ke?
nasib ler :p
yang penting lawo, kan kan kan…
Alhamdulillah.. aku syukur sangat-sangat…
Result keluar hari ni. Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah. Itu je yang mampu aku ucapkan…
Semoga aku terus termotivated untuk belajar lepas ni. Sem 2, akan lebih mencabar.
Sem 1 ok lagi sebab dah pernah belajar masa foundation dulu.
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Ada mesej di sini… What are you trying to tell me, Ya Rahmaan…
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Winter break ni aku memang tak lekat di rumah. Dah try nak lekat (:p) tapi ade je benda yang memerlukan diri ini mengeluarkan diri dari umah. Semalam free, aku keluar dengan kawan pergi port melbourne… SubhanAllah.. amat lawa dan tak terkata cantiknnya laut dan langit semalam… here goes.. saksikan sendiri!
Hari ni nak bawa kawan dari clayton and canberra jalan-jalan di brunswick, tempat terletaknya daging halal and banyak kedai2 arab.. and ade kedai baju 2nd hand (savers).. and ade IBC (kedai buku islam n busana muslimah and all things related yang amat best).
Harapnya hari-hari seterusnya juga terisi dengan perkara penuh manfaat.. taknak menyesal!!… winter break is going to end soon.. nanti dah start sem balik, I’ll surely miss leisure time… and miss keluar jalan2!
Everything happens for reasons.
A lot of questions rise… answers are revealed in so many ways.
I thank Allah, He has set up a very careful plan… so that I understand. So that I understand. Making sense of this whole thing!
It’s not going to be easy. Never be easier. And it’s going to be a looooong journey. Relatively. Yes, relatively. Because after all this world is just a pit stop. You know how pit stop is like…. you have only seconds before resuming the race… if you took longer, you’re going to lose…
To tell the truth, only a few days ago the reality sunk in. I mean, REALLY SUNK IN. The fact that I will eventually die. The fact that I am going to die. The fact that I will either make it to Jannah, or suffer in hell…
As I said, many questions rise… and answers are revealed in so many ways. He is the most gracious, the most merciful. I am yet to have all the answers. Still searching. Will continue searching. Guide me Ya Allah.
Every single breath. Every single step. Every single decision. Allahummahdini…
And.. Alhamdulillah for this journey…… I couldn’t ask for more.. I couldn’t ask for a different one… HE knows best. And this is the best one for me….
Allah created each and everyone of us uniquely. Not everyone can make sense of this world by going through the same path.. He knows what’s best for each and everyone of us…. so, be careful everyone…. be careful…. be careful in analyzing whatever that happening… everything happens for reasons… there are always message, hidden or maybe, can be too obvious… jangan sampai terlepas pandang… don’t let go of something so precious………..
Pray so that all of us will be strong, strong enough to face all trials, and strong enough to continue our journey … LA HAWLA WALA KUWWATA ILLA BILLAH .. and pray that HE will erase all negative points in our heart.. over-skeptism, riya’, egoistic, AL-WAHNU… and many others, that we know we have it, but too ignorant to erase it…
And.. I shall end this entry with this ayaah.. my favorite one, currently (Ar-Ra’d:2)
