mkderwish…

I think I’m exposed to too much youtube already. It is a good thing? a bad thing? I found so many good videos. Feel like posting it all up here! Some videos are just so good it made me cry. Some are just so creative. Some are eye-openers. Some are a-must-see! Some left unexplained feeling in you..

But I feel totally disgusted by the many comments left on some videos. Hello, takde kene mengena pun! Some people just want to carik gaduh, kan. I guess that kind of people, you don’t have to layan them. They just want to spark unnecessary arguments and never want to come to any agreement. Saje nak carik gaduh. Sedih… you know what i’m saying? you know what i’m saying?! (dengan gaya ali dalam ummahfilms.. check out all his videos at youtube!). If you don’t know what I’m saying, try to watch any islamic related videos, and try to read the comments. Kalau come across comments like this, it’s better to mark it as spam dari melayan derang dgn jawapan kita yang tak berapa ade ilmu ni.. (um, betul ke pendirian ana ni?)

When you’re not sure about something, find out the truth, la… kalau tak tau, tanya baik-baik. There are always 2 sides of every story. Jangan main cakap je.. jgn sebarkan perkara yang tak berasas… membawa fitnah kepada islam..

If you don’t have anyhing good to say, say nothing. ًMan yu’min billah wal yaumil akhir, falyaqul khairan aw liyasmuth.
But then, all those people who left mindless comments bukannye beriman…

Ha, kalau korang rajin beryou-tube.. whenever jumpa video ttg islam, and the video is good, help islam by rating it high so that it’ll be highlighted. Membuka ruang dakwah. We never know, when we make small deeds, eventhough it seems insignificant, it actually give some impact on someone somewhere…

It’s very touching to read comment like this “I’m not yet a muslim, but InsyaAllah!”
You can be part of this..
..you know what I’m sayin’?!

Tips on searching good and time-worthy videos, just go to any islamic group in youtube, they have compiled many videos in a place.. a good place to start. Some of them are this and this.

I shall leave you all with this… this made me cry!

(sorry, my languange are all rojaks…)

I so cannot control my eating habit la.
Just now we went to Alamanda… and I bought 2 pretzels, n one rotiboy.
And at the supermarket I bought WantWant rice crackers (sedap giler!), n sunflower kernels (sedap gak!) and Dahfa dried fish fillet (sdapppp!). Everything is snack! huhu. How can I be healthy? I cannot stop eating them… yela, all of them are easy to consume..i mean, not messy at all. So can eat at any time while doing anything. Right now I’m eating the rice crackers.. Apela, we are supposed to be moderate in eating… byk nye snack!!!

and … oh! how easy my money vanished!

Actually the main reason we went there is to take passport-sized pictures. Well, for me it turned out ugly! huhu.. I never like taking this kind of photo. They seldomly turn out well for me. Well, maybe I really look like that in real life… haha. But then, digi cam pics are different. And I hate passport-sized photo.. all my parut and jerawat are so visible…. haha. And I looked dark… And so chubby la.. (yela.. have to accept the fact that I’m montel la.. ). Uh, I just looked really weird in that pic… nuff said. Oh, tudung tak betul.. hihihi.

Uh oh.. post-eating sickness.. sakit perut! huhu.

Application matter…

I have 6 forms in my hand right now. But we are only allowed to apply to 5 universities. And I haven’t make up my mind yet, which university I should not apply to… confused gak ni. The problem is, I haven’t received my AP result yet! and without AP, uni of melbourne amat tipis harapan… they want AP results…

hmmm…deviation:

I am soooo not good in PR. Cane ni?? tak reti nak berurusan dgn org. Tak reti nak mengayat… haha. n tak reti nak wat keje… I’m not good at this. Why can’t people see that? and let me do something else, pls. Huhu.

As a daie, we have to be really good in approaching people… but I am just not good. I think my ability is in different area… if a person doesn’t have a good skills in this area, shud he practice it? i mean, ,mmg kene ke? kalau dah tak reti takkan nak pakse2? dah try dah pon.

n.. dlm dunia ni ade pelbagai bidang… n ramai manusia… bukan ke kite ni ramai utk saling lengkap melengkapi.. I mean, kalau i tak reti, jgn pakse sgt… i know myself better..

hapela aku ngarut…

online petition, muslims in malaysia who haven’t submit their name, pls do so. At this site also got some intersting articles.. I just read one from a muslim revert, Yusuf yates or something. http://myislamnetwork.net

Alhamdulillah, today is my 4th day of fasting in the Rejab month. Oh, it’s already 14th Rejab… I hope I can at least fast on Monday and Thursday. But today was quite challenging… hihi. I didn’t sahur… as the consequence, I suffered from a very painful headache since morning… I was dehidrated I guess.

Good thing today we had no classes. So I just relaxed on my bed… watching drama. Wait a minute! Maybe that drama was the actual cause of my headache… You see, it is a korean drama. So, amat berbelit2 and tensi! asik terpisah…bahagia sekejap.. terpisah lagi… pastu byk pendam je perasaan.. pastu story line agak slow…20 something episodes!!. Last2 hero mati.. wakaka… (I’m not telling the title of the drama in case anyone wants to watch it.. and terspoilt… hihi)

Yesterday was our first Golf practical session. My first time of touching golf club.
Golf isn’t so bad afterall. You get some sort of satisfaction when you swing the club with all your ‘power’, and you watch how far the ball goes. And the joy of running on the field, kutip bola when we ran out of balls…. haha.. oh, what fun.
But, I felt embarrassed most of the time.. because I usually missed the ball… swing punyela gaya, but the ball was still there..

Sekarang tengah sakit perut sbb makan banyak sangat. Hihi. Tadi puase… n beli mknn berbuka di Alamanda. Tak sangka banyak sgt pulak. Tak abeskan, sayang. So sumbat je la dlm perut. Mmg la tak baik kenyang sangat, but aku tak sanggup buang makanan… kalau simpan utk sahur esok takut tak okay lagi… And now I’ve learnt a lesson la… jgn pakse diri, my stomach is not that healthy… serious sakit…. pedih2…

We’ll start our car wash this week… hope it goes well.. and hope many customers turn up.

I haven’t received my AP result yet… feeling really-really anxious now. What happens to my result?

My room is in a mess….. My mind is in a mess

4 months left…. (I started counting days again…… )

Geram sebab tak dapat balik jb for this weekend. I miss Hanaa’ ! Nanti bile balik like a month lagi, she’ll be lot bigger! tak best nye…

Kan geram… so today ajak kawan gi shopping di Alamanda.. dah rase sesak nafas duduk lame dlm uniten nih.. Huhu. Baru 2 minggu. Nak balik next week but tak tau boleh ke tak. Yela, our community project nak start next week. And kitorang plan nak buat car wash every weekend.. (tak ternegotiate pulak dengan group members.. buat la sebulan 2 kali ke.. I wanna go back!).

Hmm.. agak membazir gak hari ni.. shopping beli ape yer? Beli satu novel baru, Sophie’s World. Novel ni dari dulu rase nak beli tapi tak terbeli. Actually banyak sangat lagi novel atas rak tuh tak habes bace lagi. But most of them are Jodi Picoult’s. Sekarang ni agak penat bace Jodi Picoult nye.. coz penuh ngan trials and belit2 sket. But I like her style, la.. cume skrg ni nak take a break from a very heavy novel. Tapi rasenye Sophie’s World pun heavy. Ye ke? tengok dulu la.. huhu.. kalau tanak yg heavy bace la Meg Cabot’s .. tapi agak tak best lah cite cenggitu I think…

What else I bought? hmm.. famous amos, 100 grm jer. And beli banyak gak stok makanan.. susu kotak, and snacks… Tak best shopping sendri2.. duit limited la.. Kalau shopping ngan parents tak yah risau sgt. Huhu.. esok plak nak gi Sunway Pyramid.. habes kering wallet ku.. Nak gi Sunway Pyramid coz ade US education fair.. diwajibkan pergi utk survey uni yg ade spring intake…

To tell the truth, rasenye plan nak hantar kitorang ke US takkan jadi.. biarla.. biarla! let me focus, please! Kalau betul derang risau about the honour thing.. derang shud have check about it before sending us to any preparatory programme! They are playing with our future here.. and what about my frens yg ke sini just becoz dun want to go to US in da 1st place.. because dapat Aussie n NZ.. then kene gak pi US..
Takkpon, at least let us choose… we understand we are being sponsored.. but we’re also human..

Isnin, kitorang takde kelas langsung. So, it’s like having a 3 days weekend… so, agak rugi kalau x balik! i wanna go bck.

This computer has started having some problems.. If I use DivX player for too long, it will shut itself down… waa.. agak tak best… Divx kan selalu ade every codec needed to view any video.. so i often use it.

Haaa.. whatever. agak malasnye nak buat ape2 skrg.. takde mood utk buat ape2 selain tdo n tgk drama.., hehe.. banyak baju nak basuh.. nantila, tonite ke…

Wa.. post ni agak melayu n merepek.. biarla.. biarla!

I screwed up during the exam, I know. I was so stressed last Saturday, so I begged my brother and sister to fetch me at UNITEN and bring me anywhere to pacify my feelings. So they did.

We went to KL Convention Centre; a PC fair was being held. There were so many people, packed like sardines. I bought new USB disk, Altec Langsing earphones, and a new optical mouse, because my poor mouse was dysfunctional. Bye bye money for those.

I also went to Kinokuniya; I bought 2 new novels there. There are Vanishing Act by Jodi Picoult and Ever After by Graham Swift. Now I am in the middle of Vanishing Act. Like usual, Jodi presented a flawless style of writing. (In my humble opinion, lah…). She is my favorite writer for now. I already have three of her novels.

We all are going to a theatre tonight, to watch Julius Caesar (Educational trip for scholarship holders, ha-ha). I do not know about this historical epic much, so I do not have any high expectation. It sounds boring, don’t you think? I did not want to judge it without seeing it first. However, I could not help it. Just hope it will turn out to be good. We are supposed to write an essay about it, too.

Things I need to buy:
• Graphing Calculator (which priced around RM400)
• New sandals. I can trade it with my new Nike snickers, which I have never worn.
• New handbag that match any dresses. (I got 4 handbags, but they all cannot be matched with my clothes properly)
• New glasses because the specs I currently use is somewhat broken. Not really, but it is disturbing. And my friends said I should not wear my old specs; I look like a nerd… (so I looked like a nerd before? When I was in school?)
• A scanner for my convenience here… I searched for it at the PC fair, but could not find it. It seems the fashion now is having the 3 in 1 copier, scanner and printer. But I already have a printer….
• Can I buy love? Just kidding… hahaha

To buy all these things (except for the last item), I need money! (Which I do not have). I do not want to burden my parents. But I really really need a graphing calculator and a new specs. No joke.

This post sounds ..um.. not good

Thank God, finally the network connection is back. I have posted (only) one of the entries that I wrote for the past few days/weeks. I don’t like how the entry turned out but I posted it anyway. I usually write rubbish when I know there is no internet connection (because I know I won’t be able to post it). The other entries are just too ‘meaningless’, not worth to be published.

I feel tired. Most probably because just now we had swimming lesson. Actually today we got swimming test. Not really swimming, though, today. We were being tested on ‘reaching rescue’ and ‘back float’. Quite easy, both of them. The hard part will come next week on Tuesday and Wednesday. We will do 50 metres breast-stroke and 25 metres free-style. And also, trading! (keeping afloat vertically in water with minimal movements).

So why am I tired if today we just did the easy part of the test? Because I practiced my stroke…. so tiring. I think I manage to do free-style but I struggle with breast-stroke. I need more practices, please!. And also, trading is so tiring because we have to do it for a minute. Sounds like a very short period eh? you bet! I nearly drowned, okay? (technically because I always feel too tired to swim back to the pool’s side when I cannot stand it anymore…what a lame reason. But true..).

Anyway.. I’ll do my best in the next week test. Wish me luck.

Swimming is fun!

Yesterday was not interesting. Okay, maybe it’s not fair to say it wasn’t. But what I am certain of is yesterday was extremely tiring. I thought my shoulders had detached from my body and I couldn’t stand walking in my high-heels, it was too painful.

Back from the exhibition, I got a bag full with brochures and prospectus from almost 10 universities that I want to consider applying. (Oh, and one university that my friends and I felt pity to because no one was visiting its booth, I guess because it is located at Darwin and such a small university.).They were so heavy that the bag carried them cut through my shoulder. I felt like dragging it all the way in the komuter and LRT and at Mid Valley but it would be too embarassing. My friends wouldn’t want to walk besides me.

We ended our fasting of the day at Mid Valley. I decided not to do that anymore. There were just too much crowd. Not only it was hard to search unoccupied restaurant table, the surau too, was too crowded and it took times to take the wudhu’ and took turns in praying. Just too many people. It’s not worth it, I think. If you really want ‘outside’ food, just buy them and then go back home and eat peacefully.

I forgot to say that I broke my own promise. I bought 2 novels instead of one. There are ‘The Pact’ by Jodi Picoult and ‘My Story’ by Dave Prezler (or something). I felt guilty but not anymore because there are the only 2 things I bought yesterday. (Well, excluding pretzels and Long John Silver meal set).

I am half way through ‘The Pact’. I feel uneasy because there are just too many obscene things. I was expecting something like ‘My Sister’s Keeper’ by the same author. ‘My Sister’s Keeper’ is so touching and inspiring and somewhat clean if you know what I mean. Maybe I was dissapointed but I still think the theme brought by ‘The Pact’ is good. I enjoy reading the clean part of it.

This always happened to me. I bought ‘I Know This Much Is True’ by Wally Lamb months ago and I still haven’t finished reading it because I felt disgusted by the explicit part. But I really like the theme. So touching, about this scyzhophrenic man and his brother. Depressing, yeah, but interesting.

Anyway, I want to talk about ‘My Sister’s Keeper’. I recommend this book and give it 5 stars. This book is so good. It overwhelmed me everytime I read it and I felt empathy towards the main character (Anna). This book is narrated so effectively that you can almost feel what the character feel. I cried a couple of times in the process of finishing this book and I’ll say, it was worth it. This is a story about a conflict in a family who had an ill daughter (Anna’s sister) and how the family dealt with it.

I always say this but it is truly true that I am not a good book reviewer and I cannot tell about books effectively. But I can confirm that ‘My Sister’s Keeper’ is truly a good book and a must-read.

Oh, tomorrow classes will start again. And SAT result! and 5 days more before holiday.. cannot wait…