mkderwish…

Just now I went to school, met my former mentor and teacher (same person).
So, I told her some of the things I did… improper things. I said, dharuri…no other choice…
Then she said, “Nasib baik tak mati lagi, sempat awak nak bertaubat…”

Uish! That’s harsh, ustazah! (I called her ustazah).

But, it’s a fact, kan. No matter how bitter. True, Alhamdulillah Allah still gives me time, for me to repent. Kalau mati tang-tang buat dosa camne? Nauzubillah min zalik…

Ya Allah, thank You… for not letting me go….
Thank You, for reminding me…

Oh, I have sinned a lot.

I so cannot control my eating habit la.
Just now we went to Alamanda… and I bought 2 pretzels, n one rotiboy.
And at the supermarket I bought WantWant rice crackers (sedap giler!), n sunflower kernels (sedap gak!) and Dahfa dried fish fillet (sdapppp!). Everything is snack! huhu. How can I be healthy? I cannot stop eating them… yela, all of them are easy to consume..i mean, not messy at all. So can eat at any time while doing anything. Right now I’m eating the rice crackers.. Apela, we are supposed to be moderate in eating… byk nye snack!!!

and … oh! how easy my money vanished!

Actually the main reason we went there is to take passport-sized pictures. Well, for me it turned out ugly! huhu.. I never like taking this kind of photo. They seldomly turn out well for me. Well, maybe I really look like that in real life… haha. But then, digi cam pics are different. And I hate passport-sized photo.. all my parut and jerawat are so visible…. haha. And I looked dark… And so chubby la.. (yela.. have to accept the fact that I’m montel la.. ). Uh, I just looked really weird in that pic… nuff said. Oh, tudung tak betul.. hihihi.

Uh oh.. post-eating sickness.. sakit perut! huhu.

Application matter…

I have 6 forms in my hand right now. But we are only allowed to apply to 5 universities. And I haven’t make up my mind yet, which university I should not apply to… confused gak ni. The problem is, I haven’t received my AP result yet! and without AP, uni of melbourne amat tipis harapan… they want AP results…

hmmm…deviation:

I am soooo not good in PR. Cane ni?? tak reti nak berurusan dgn org. Tak reti nak mengayat… haha. n tak reti nak wat keje… I’m not good at this. Why can’t people see that? and let me do something else, pls. Huhu.

As a daie, we have to be really good in approaching people… but I am just not good. I think my ability is in different area… if a person doesn’t have a good skills in this area, shud he practice it? i mean, ,mmg kene ke? kalau dah tak reti takkan nak pakse2? dah try dah pon.

n.. dlm dunia ni ade pelbagai bidang… n ramai manusia… bukan ke kite ni ramai utk saling lengkap melengkapi.. I mean, kalau i tak reti, jgn pakse sgt… i know myself better..

hapela aku ngarut…

online petition, muslims in malaysia who haven’t submit their name, pls do so. At this site also got some intersting articles.. I just read one from a muslim revert, Yusuf yates or something. http://myislamnetwork.net

“Each riyal, dirham …etc. used to buy their goods eventually becomes bullets to be fired at the hearts of brothers and children in Palestine. For this reason, it is an obligation not to help them (the enemies of Islam) by buying their goods. To buy their goods is to support tyranny, oppression and aggression.” -Sheikh Yusof Al-Qardhawi

Some of the major companies …

There are many other companies, such as McDonald, KFC, Pizza Hut…to tell the truth, I’ve boycotted all these companies since form 2, but recently, I started to buy again.. McD. Dah lama tak ada orang ingatkan aku… suddenly I felt so guilty and sinful. Dr Yusof Al-Qardhawi dah keluarkan fatwa dah about pengharaman benda2 nih.. but Malaysians just ignore it.

Kata je kesian and semangat nak ‘berjihad’.. tapi pengorbanan sikit nih pun tak mampu nak buat. Macammana nak berjaya? InsyaAllah, mulai sekarang, I’ll never buy those products again. Bukannya mati tak makan McD. Bukannya tak boleh hidup tak minum Coke. Lagi cepat mati adelah, kalau consume all those fast foods.

For more information, do visit http://www.inminds.co.uk/boycott-israel.html

I looked very happy in this picture …
I’m glad I can still smile.. and laugh… and be happy..
Some people cannot even lift their lips to fake a smile…

Alhamdulillah, aku masih berupaya untuk bernafas di muka bumi ini… masih berupaya untuk bangkit mencari kebenaran.. masih berupaya untuk bangun kembali setelah jatuh.. masih berpeluang untuk perbaiki diri setelah ‘mati’ …….